I am “gifted” intellectually (I’m also a stoner burnout) and also autistic as hell. I mask okay as an adult but I don’t have a “social sense”. I also am a very sensitive person. I got bullied a lot as a kid, which contributed to my trauma. Additionally, being a social pariah left me cut off from “good enough” support network that could have helped me cope with trouble in the home. The sword cuts both ways, right?
Generally I don’t think it matters? It’s all stuff that already happened, we just have to pick up the pieces.
For me the only place it feels especially relevant is the question of “did my parents really suck or just kinda suck and it affected me more?” Which is still pretty navel gazey.
I think my intellect has helped me in recovery because once I started really researching CPTSD, it became easier to identify when my trauma was acting up and making me do something against my own best interest. It has given me a lot of good judgement and insight.
On the flip side, this baby has A LOT of horsepower to torment myself with. I am doing better as I heal but when I had a very shitty sense of self worth I throughly convinced myself of some really self destructive shit and let it drag me around ruining my sanity and interpersonal relationships.
Source: https://www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comments/t2tyha/comment/hyppqnm/
https://www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comments/t2tyha/is_there_a_correlation_between_cptsd_and/
I’m pretty fucking gifted, no?